I struggled with the title of this post because there is no beauty in the "letting go" of things and beliefs that have driven your actions, thought process, and overall self-esteem throughout life. I found there was only release, and a struggle to, at that. It is difficult to confront the things that bring us discomfort, yet we continue to practice.
About six months ago, I came to a fork in the road where I had to choose to continue living the thoughtlife that I had been conditioned to live, or choose a new path that came with uncertainty but had the potential for more peace and freedom to slaw away at years of beliefs and practices that brought me discomfort. I chose the new road, visible to me only because something had been preparing me to see it for about a year or more.
I began the process by quitting dieting slowly and practicing positive affirmations. At first, my affirmations were about my body being healthy and burning fat (envisioning being smaller), being wealthy, loving my job and doing God's will, etc. Then it dawned on me that I was just really trying to travel a parallel road to the one I had decided to leave. I needed to begin to accept myself for what and who I was, accept where I was and acknowledge the want for change in some aspects, and understand that I had been given adequate income that could remain the same, decrease or increase, and I would still be COMFORTABLE. The more fear I attached to those things, the more they fleated. I then became open to endless possibilities for change, but simultaneously I had to be fine with things remaining the same as well. It's the neutral spot in life.
Currently, I can't say that I don't struggle to dismiss old beliefs of how I should act, feel, or look, but it is getting a lot easier to love myself the way I am, not feel pressured to be a certain way, etc. I can try on a pair of pants that I can no longer fit, and feel disgusted or upset. I just slide them off and put them back into the closet or discard them to charity. It feels good to slowly free myself of constraints that hinder happiness. I have applied this way of thinking to my marriage, parenting, and approach to life overall.
I pray that you have the courage to break free from any aspect of your life that no longer serves you well. This journey has been so eye-opening for me and my family, as it allows for more peace and acceptance.
With Love and Care,
I am a 36 year old wife and mother of three children. I love all-things creative and writing thought-provoking posts. I began documenting #MyEarlyMorningThoughts about two years ago and have since received many requests to begin blogging and to continue posting about everyday life, growth, maturity, and christian concepts. Don't be shy, feel free to comment your life experiences and wisdom on any post.