As I sit here in total disbelief, worry, sadness and gratefulness, I can’t help but wonder if you know how much you are being thought of and missed? I’m in disbelief because we just made plans for us to see one another almost every day, with you staying at my house during the week. I’m in disbelief because, although we pray for safe travels, we never really expect to get the call that ‘there has been an accident’. We are all saddened at the thought of you possibly being in pain and alone; its heart-wrenching for us. If you were awake at any time, during this horrible accident, I hope that you called out to God and was able to find comfort in Him. Initially, I selfishly hoped that you would have tried to reach for your phone to call one of us, but later realized that the only person you needed to reach requires no man-made technology that we seem to feel we can’t live without. We are saddened because there is so much life you had to live, and we are left with the task of piecing everything together, so we can move on and remember you in a way that brings us peace and solace. I am particularly grateful that I had the opportunity to sit and talk with you just hours before and appreciate the relationship we had and hope to still have, even though you are not physically here. I remember leaving dinner with you feeling happy that we had shared a now unforgettable moment of laughter and reminiscing.
The loss of you brings me to the vulnerable state of not knowing and fear that this could actually happen to any one of us. It also brings me to the undeniable realization of knowing that we need to have faith and lean on God now more than ever. As we mourn and remember you, know that you have always been loved, understood, and accepted for who you are and were in our lives.
For this is what the LORD says: …..11 For I know the plans I have for you, declares the LORD, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, to give you a future and a hope. 12 Then you will call upon Me and come and pray to Me, and I will listen to you. 13 You will seek Me and find Me when you search for Me with all your heart.
I am a 36 year old wife and mother of three children. I love all-things creative and writing thought-provoking posts. I began documenting #MyEarlyMorningThoughts about two years ago and have since received many requests to begin blogging and to continue posting about everyday life, growth, maturity, and christian concepts. Don't be shy, feel free to comment your life experiences and wisdom on any post.